I didn’t necessarily decide to have long hair. It just grew and I’m awful for attending hairdressers. I’ve been once a year sometimes less since having children. But I didn’t think I’d ever be sitting in the position I currently am.
My hair is falling out.
I expected hair loss after pregnancy. It happened with P2 leaving me with an attractive tuff of hair around my hairline. It’s happened again with P3 and that has finally started to grow back. It’s not that part of my hair loss that I’m talking about.
I’ve been noticing more and more hair tangled in the brush but earlier this week was the worst. I’d washed my hair as usual. I’d towel dried it as usual. I brushed it wet as usual. I blow dried it as usual. I brushed it as usual. But it wasn’t usual. I looked down at the brush and was greeted by what looked like my whole head of hair. It was thick with my beautiful long locks.
In fact I was a blubbering mess. That amount of hair loss was not normal. It certainly wasn’t post-pregnancy hair loss surely?! It wasn’t until later that day and the following days that I realised exactly where all the hair is coming from. I have about two inch long tuffs going long my parting and at the back. My hair has broken off rather than fallen out from the root.
At that point I realised that I’m probably not physically dying but more emotionally now as I have to deal with potentially more of my hair falling out leaving me with an embarrassing hair style to hide. My hair loss is self inflicted. It’s from bleaching my hair. And I feel awful.
I actually love being blonde. Hubby loves me blonde. But it’s killing my hair. So now I only have one option and that’s to go back to my natural hair colour of brown. I’m going to give my hair a break and let the roots grow through as much as I can before going back to being a brunette. I’ve also bought some Keratin Oil Shampoo and Conditioner to help restore some of it’s natural goodness.
I’m only 22 and I’m certainly not ready to lose my hair completely. I’m too scared to brush it now. In fact I’m quite terrified to even touch it.