I’m getting increasingly nervous now. The fact that I have 6 weeks until my due date, but only 3 weeks until I’m classed as “term”. It’s scary. You’d think that I would be a pro at pregnancy and birth by now but I think the fact I only gave birth last year means that it’s all still so fresh in my brain. My worries aren’t “I don’t know what labour and birth feels like” sort of worries like they were with P2, but more the “oh my goodness it’s going to hurt!”
I also feel anxious about the plans. Where we’ll be when the time comes, where and what will happen to the girls. I’ve discussed it all over and over and over and over again with my hubby and my MiL but it’s just not sinking in. My hospital bag is very nearly ready, it just needs some newborn vests put in there and it’s sorted. I think. But it suddenly dawned on me that I actually need to pack an overnight/day bag for both the girls. With P2 we were living with my Mum so it was simple, I woke her up and P1 woke up that morning none the wiser with all her belongings with her.
I’m a rubbish pregnant person. I have mood swings and tiredness, I’m walking around like an old person due to my various body parts feeling horrible pains. After a bit of loving I ended up in agony the whole night, unable to sleep and believing I was in labour. My hubby woke up to me crying my eyes out this morning. I was terrified and exhausted. I think it was a case of Braxton Hicks.
I feel so unprepared yet completely prepared. We have everything we need for a baby as such, I have boobies, we have nappies, we have a Moses basket and a sling. But we have a serious lack of newborn clothes that is really really worrying me. P3 currently has two sleepsuits, one coat and three sleeping bags. I’m just praying that if we receive any gifts for her it’ll be newborn sized clothing because I can’t see us topping up in the next three to six weeks!!
Really having third baby jitters over here. Reassurance needed!!